Chasm

What happens and how do you handle it when you are between levels of excellence? My work has evolved over time, but just like myself I'm often not dead set on the direction. It's hard to keep working and exist in the chasm between "don't waste your talent" and "not professional enough". Will part of you always feel like a kid showing drawings to your grandparents? I go back and forth between wanting to be hidden and wanting to be admired.